1st
November 2012, that day must be a hoodoo day for me, I didn’t remember anything
in my dream last night before that day. There’s no particular signs, I just ran
my day ordinarily. Woke up, prepared for the work and got in the office a bit
late, after that I did some works. Still no anything weird, indeed.
Until
there’s a husband and wife came to my office, I politely let them have a seat.
They asked me some work relation questions, and I answered it just naturally.
But here it was, where all the best disasters come up to my life (not really, I’m
being exaggerated).
After
settling up some stuffs, the couple looked forward to driving off. At the
moment, I didn’t really pay attention to my phone which was being charged on
the table before my eyes (BEFORE MY EYES). I thought ‘it’s okay, I always do
kinda thing, moreover my phone is not something too interesting for people to
steal’ . Then I walked along with the couple for sending them off, they got in
the car and waved me all goodbye from inside, it’s obvious, I could see it out
of windshield.
I
came in to my office immediately without any suspiciousness, I had seat and back
faced the computer screen, as I noticed that the internet connection was all
stopping and failed, -I used my phone as wifi source, because wifi in my office
got some troubles- and I just thought ‘ah my phone is getting on my nerve again’,
I rashly looked for my phone on the table and ……. I didn’t find it. Well I’m a
good girl, there’s no doubt about it, please note! I still kept the positive
thinking in my brain and heart as well. I still thought it’s my recklessness I
forgot where the last time I placed it. Searched it under the table, behind
computer, spitted out whole my things out of bag, looked for it on some plants
in the yard, looked for it in your heart but naught, so I tried to look for it
in my heart ‘cause ♫ There will always be a place For you
for all my lifeeeee♫ well focus. For almost an hour looking for
my phone, I still didn’t find it. I asked people in my office and the answers
were all barren. And that time I exclaimed that my phone was officially lost.
Lost. And the main suspect is the couple that just left, but still I can hardly
believe, they rode car, why desire my phone which has no high selling. I mean
if they resell my phone they just can earn not really big amount of money. But
I dunno.
My heart became hollow all of sudden
as my knees grew vulnerable. I just can’t accept the fact that I lost my half
soul, my forever best friend, the one that always have my back when anyone else
unavailable at the time, the one that always succeed cheering up my mood, the one
that I learn so many things from, my tears kept streaming down my face like a
heavy rain nowadays, I needed a warm hug but there’s no one willing to give, then
I went to the wall banging up my head there and scratching it all and screamed
uncontrollably aaaaaahhhhhhh aaaaahhhhh ahhhhhhhhh… ~ well nope, I’m kidding I’m
bragging, I didn’t even shed a single tear. But I’m not bragging when I describe
my phone as I mentioned above. I even refer my phone to ‘the one’. Yeah, my
phone is even having a better level than boyfriend –of course ‘cause I don’t
have one *sigh-.
I ever lost my phone beforehand, that
time I cried so hard, but this time I didn’t. Maybe I have grown more mature. I
always see the needy and beggars when I drive home at night after lecturing,
they even have no home, they wear ragged clothes, they really struggle to
survive, they are the real deal, and why do I have to be stressing and
whining over superficial thing like losing phone?
I tried enormously hard to tell myself
that it’s really okay, I’m gonna get the better one soon, it’s just God way to
apprise me that I have to do charity more and more. I brace myself, I really
did.
I came home empty handed, and ♫ turn the key There's nobody there, no
one cares for me I wanna run to youuuuuuu huuuu huuuuuuuu ♫
someone should stop me from singing, seriously.
Well I came home and told my family
the disaster I just got through. They just made straight face like ‘oh you are
reckless, you have lost phone twice and now you have job so you can afford it
again in no time’. Yeah their face was straight but I can describe it all pretty
well.
I take it as a precious lesson, first
is I have to do charity more and the second is I have to take care my own
things more carefully, because I’m at the age where I can’t blame on people around about bad things that happen but myself, introspection.
I guess I have grown as a mature young
lady.
But, please let me pour some guts
here, okay? Thank you!
First of all,
FOR THE ONE WHO STOLE MY PHONE, YOU ARE
A HEARTLESS PERSON, YOU OBVIOUSLY DON’T KNOW HOW MUCH EFFORT THAT I PUT TO BUY
THAT PHONE, YOU DON’T KNOW HOW MEANINGFUL IT IS TO ME, TO MY LIFE! YOU DON’T
KNOW HOW SUDDENLY I BECOME AN IDIOT WHO DOESN’T KNOW WHAT TO DO THE DAY MY
PHONE LOST, I SUFFER FROM IT. I SUFFER! I CAN’T DO MY TASKS, I CAN’T UPDATE
ABOUT MY BIAS. I HAVE TO SNEAK IN AND
BORROW MY BRO’S PHONE SECRETLY WHILE HE’S SLEEPING. I JUST CAN’T DO MY OWN
THINGS LIKE OMG THIS IS SO BAD! I FEEL BAD FOR MYSELF!
And the second is… no I am not done
yet
MY LIFE IS SUCH A MESS, IT’S A
DEVASTATION. YOU DEVASTATED ME! YOU ARE THE NASTIEST EVIL THAT EVER EXIST! THE
MOST MEAN PERSON IN TAYLOR SWIFT SONG, THE REAL VERSION OF REGINA GEORGE, THE
REAL VERSION OF LORD VOLDEMORT, YOU ARE THE SCARIEST GHOST IN EVERY HALLOWEEN
CELEBRATION, REAL VERSION OF MISCA FROM CINTA FITRI! OR ALWAYS BE THE MALICIOUS
ROLE IN EVERY DISNEY MOVIE OR WHATEVER!! YOU ARE BAD! I DETEST YOU. I DETEST
YOU FOR RUINING MY LIFE! I SWEAR!
And the third…. Well I think it’s
enough.
I hope my phone is very useful for
you, and I WISH YOU ARE ABANDONED BY YOUR COUPLE NOW, ‘CAUSE I WANT YOU TO GET
THROUGH WHAT IT FEELS TO BE ABANDONED BY YOUR HALF SOUL! AND BE ALONE IN LIFE
AND ♫mean and mean and mean so someday I’ll be living in a big ol’ city and all
you’re ever gonna be is mean♫
Phiuuuuhhh
I think it really is the end. Well said,
that’s just a slight of my guts.
And I think I ain’t a mature yet. LOL.
It’s okay to puke all of your guts in
blog than in real life I guess.
So, that’s all! BYE.
♫Someday I'll be big enough so you can't hit me And all
you're ever gonna be is mean Why you gotta be so?.. mean ♫
*lanjut nyanyi*
*dadah dadah cantik*
