Deprivation

Again.
Today one of my family members went straight to heaven. I still can picture the burial process of Mother perfectly. I do remember the step-by-step and as for today, it's still the same.
The shock, the tears, the disbelief, the prayers, the bath process, the corpse pray ritual, even the cemetery.
Yes, it's my first sister.
I can feel and see the pain right through my family eyes. She's too young to be gone this soon, she'll just turn 38 next august. But it's just like how my Mother passed away, though startling I think I've already known it, when I thought it'd be unbearable, I can bear it when the time has come... it's just the way it is.
All of people here indeed in misery.

I have no idea why this song keeps repeating in my head while writing this, Ebony and Ivory by Stevie Wonder and Dionne Warwick... there's a line that has always been my favorite "..We all know that people are the same wherever we go.
There is good and bad in everyone." ♬♬♬..
That's that.. there is good and bad in everyone..
I fully agree with that phrase.
Even to myself.
There is good and bad in me, I'm not fully a saint or a criminal..
Yes, included my sister..
She's not an angel nor evil.
She had good points and bad points as well.
But I know she's a good person after all.
She loved nagging... at everyone, at me.
And her words could be much sharper than a sword.
Pretty much left some scars in my heart.
Sometimes it hurt me and broke my heart into gazillions pieces.
On the other hand.
She loved cooking.
She loved making good food.
She kept getting us properly feed.
She was so close to God.
She had soft voice while reading holy Qur'an.
Yes she was just a normal human being.

She was really close to father, Father loves her so much, everyone can tell.

For these past two years, after Mother passed away and got married , she had been in agony. She was sick.. she kept it to herself..
Then it revealed.. we knew that at the end.

Hmmm...
My father tried so hard to find a way, to make my sister back on her feet, to make her stand strong safe and sound again. But the disease was too formidable, well aint right to say that.. hm, I know the disease is only the media from God to erase all her sins, Amin.
Moreover, Father didn't have enough money to complete the hospital  payment. So yeah.. you know.

God called her yesterday at 10pm.. it's been 24 hours since the last time she exhaled.
Thank you so much for all the supporters and participants that help either morally or materially. We can never thank you guys enough.
Please pray for my sister.

It's such a good luck, we could find a space for her near Mother's grave. I envy her, she has finally reunited with Mother in heaven. Lol.
I believe, both of them are in the best place by now.

And the end, I just wanna say.
I love you both!
Salam buat mama ya mba, baik-baik disana.
Oh iya salam juga buat Cory Monteith.